glorious - part 2

the evening went really well! The party was in a rented room above a pub, i was worried I wouldn't know anyone. I decided to make an effort, feeling kinda sexy in my little pinstripe skirt and furry legwarmers strutting down the street. There's no use cowering in the shadows when you have furry legs. I met my friend before we arrived, she'd written me a poem! A txt I sent her inspired it, all about the langour of youth, beauty and decadence. it was lovely. we walked over to the pub when another friend arrived. I hadn't seen them in so long. They were really sweet, it was great to catch up. When you haven't seen someone in a long time there are loads of things to ask so its not so awkward. I was the only one of the 3 of us with (fake)ID so I tottered along with the drinks. they wouldn't give us triples, bah humbug. I drank double vodka tonics instead, clear and pure. none of that sugary pop shit. talking of pop shit the music was dire. justin timberlake. bon jovi.I chatted to loads of people, I felt really sociable. Some more people I knew turned up. I also had a big talk with my (best) friend. I said we'd be totally honest now, no secrets. she said she thought I was really beautiful and she couldn't understand how I could see different. I love her. Afterwards we crammed in will's car and went back to marco's to smoke some draw. I giggled and smoked a pipe. it has to be done. The guys had girl-slagging conversations, then remembering I was there they apologised. I'm not shocked. They walked me to the bus stop. I didn't get home til 2.30. I got the night bus. Feel like I'm re-becoming a proper teenager. about time. the restraints are coming off. these bonds are shackle free.Today I got up pretty exhausted. white liner brightens up my bleary eyes. Another day in the book shop. I didn't eat much, feeling a bit woozy in my tummy. But didn't binge, which makes a nice change. I just got home, changed into some summery clothes and lay on my bed playing guitar.this feels so warm.