boy...one day you'll be a man

I sure am a circus of emotions. like the rhyme...and when they were up they were up and when they were down they were down. now I'm feeling fine and dandy.I went to the doctors and got very frustrated and felt rather bad. then my dad took me to see my grandmother. its her birthday and she's all on her own with no one to cut her cakes with. I didn't want to be looking sad on her special day so i tried to look cheery. you pretend enough and it becomes real. i felt good and it was nice to see her.there's no such thing as misery chic. not really. red teary eyes are not sexy.and then i could concentrate on my work and be sunny. my mum called and I was cheerful, not moping to her. now I'll go lie down and read, I feel at peace.