double dare

whilst its fresh in my mind I'll just say yippee MCR are playing reading. I was just thinking about them as I washed my hair. its gonna be so much fun, me, my brother, a tent, skittle vodka, copious weed and shrooms, music music music, what an adventure. see me there!I saw my dietician in the pub yesterday, it was so strange. she's not supposed to have a life outside her job. or drink. all she can do is try and make me drink my milk. Back to the pub, well i did a very strange thing yesterday. do you remember the guy I met at the bus stop last week? well I was bored at work so I decided to txt him, my phone had buggered up and his last messages hadn't really worked. and he said he was getting a drink and did i want to drop by after work. and I was umming and erring. then i did something totally uncharacteristic. I called him! I do not call people I don't know well. It is scary. But I did it. And said I'd come out.*short intermission in which I loose my bankcard shiiiiiiit*Finally overcome terror and leave house. Get lost, he gives me wrong directions to the pub and we end up in different ones. Luckily a girl I know works in the pub I was at so I chatted and met the people she works with, not looking like I went to the pub on my own. Which would be a little pathetic. He turned up with a friend. The others think this is trange, meeting up with someone you don't really know. I felt like doing something spontaneous. He had a friend and we chatted. when I meet new people we seem to get onto very strange subjects. like interesting scars and encounters with wild animals. I lose on all accounts, i haven't done enough exciting things. But we all got on well, though I don't think I was attracted to them. I think they'd thought I was a bit older, said we'd go clubbing when i come of age.Which is this weekend by the way. if you love me you'll show it with lots of gifts: http://www.amazon.co.uk/exec/obidos/registry/397RRYIZERBFD/ref%3Dwl%5Fem%5Fto/202-5149247-8890209just kidding. its not about presents, i haven't really asked for anything. I have everything I need, more than i need. The best things I have you can't buy in a shop or wrap in a box. anyway. my family's coming over for the seder meal. it'll be the first passover without my grandfather. i don't know how it'll be, he usually lead. his jokes, little phrases, quoting keates and kipling, a gentleman's manners. 'if everyone got what they wanted we'd all be driving jaguars and have redheaded women'. I miss him. I hope he gets better, i'm not allowed to go see him in hospital. he doesn't want to be remembered that way. just how he was, alive. We're going clubbing. all my girls. guys are busy with other plans. ah, like pete says, fuck 'em. It'll be more fun all girly, getting glammed up in our glitter and furs. Its a rock'n'roll, glam rock retro pop kinda place with a shakespearean theme for saturday. sounds prrrrfect. I can drink, dance, giggle, sing. all that jazz. next day I'm having a joint birthday picnic, play games, sip champagne outta tea cups, lie about. sounds fun, very chilled. im enjoying inviting people.today i saw an assembley, it mentioned eco-ethical idea. like my plastic bag quest. I hate them!do you use plastic bags? stop it, reuse your old ones! I work in a shop and give them out all the day long. its destroying the planet, you selfish motherfuckers. anyway, thats the end of my rant.deary me, I've become quite the budding hippy. still not decided who to vote for. the end of the year it drawing close, i've got to really start working. or I'll fail everthing. but now doesn't feel like the right time, its time to be outside, running under the sun. free like the birds, falling to the floor like magnolia petals, turning in the wind.