first frapuccino of the summer

I just found this blog , isn't it cute. how adorable.
Today was such a sunny day, I even wore a skirt and sun glasses. Went to the dietician, she's a bit scary as she's tough but she's alright. has started being a lot nicer to me. She says I can do more exercise now (yippee, I'm so lazy! Must get fit) which is nice. I've very close to my proper weight. apparently my tummy is very flat. it just doesn't look that way to me. we talked a bit about the party i'm going to tomorrow. I think she thought it was funny. in other news today anorexic goes to chocolate party.
actually I've been to chocolate parties before, just this one has other people there. I will probably eat to much. but I don't feel all that bothered about it. Must try and get the mix right, eat but still interact with others. its easy to get absorbed in the food and forget there's a party.
She didn't tell me my weight, I don't want to know the numbers. i fixated on numbers. Which is strange for someone who doesn't much like maths. calories, minutes of exercise, pounds and kilos, counting the days, the pieces. I am more than just a number.
But apparently I look much better. am not so sure. need constant reassurance. My mum said they'll take a photo of me for a case history and show it to the children who will say 'she's fat'. I'm sure she ment this in a nice way, it just came out a bit wrong. My mum says people will like me better now because I am happy and pretty, which beats unhappy and pretty. but mums always say you're pretty. We drove with the top of the car down, the wind blowing in our hair.
I'm getting my nhs worth, this treatment is apparently 'luxury'. I feel sorry for people in america where you have to pay and be on waiting lsits. lots of people out there need help.
I've been growing some sunflowers. they're red and the shoots are springing up fast. also potted some pumpkins today. very satisfying, I can see how people can get excitied about gardening. oh lord did I just say that? how pathetic. is anyone else growing anything? can you beat mine? no, didn't think so.
My mentor to be cancelled our tea. rescheduled for next week. she doesn't know she's going to be my mentor. yet. I want to ask psychology'related questions and ask her opinions on things. maybe i can get some more, people studying already at uni. any contacts would be good.
Another ripple on the boy pool. I really must think of a name for them makes it easier. ok one in now Lancelot. This is the same guy would didn't txt me and made me feel doubtful. now turns out he lost my number, and now isn't sure whether to text/call me because it's been so long. this is so silly. it's already getting complicated and we're not even going out yet. so he's not sure if I like him. and I'm not sure if I like him. how am i sposed to find out? what a stupid little paragraph this is turning into. this is turning into a teeny-gossip-lip-gloss diary. ooh I think I might like someone else too. but maybe not. i should meet people when sober. might form proper opinion.
mushroom party is go! meet me in the park, costumes optional.
I'm going to do a proper intorduction to myself soon. So everyone knows me. Now I think I'll go watch desperate housewives. yeah, it's trash but we love it! The lib dems gave me a leaflet today. Vincent Cable is such a decent guy, I can't explain why I like him. guess he just has a lot of charisma. But really, what a nice guy. he even popped round door to door to visit.
Neighbours are taking down the fence. goodbye privacy. we can't do much because we don't own it. unfair? they have a little football playing boy, very energetic! Thats enough of mundane details of my life.
I'm in a vampirish mood.I've always been a little that way inclined. perhaps this is not the kind of thing i should be admitting to. well, i've got to go now so i can't go into much detail. Maybe another time? we'll catch up, coffee ok for you?





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